People’s definitions of bullying shift a lot depending on who you ask and what their personal experiences with it are. Some people minimise their own experiences, but when they talk about their experiences with someone else that person will react with “that’s horrifying!” and it’s this big “wtf” to the person who had the experience because they don’t realise it was that bad. Similarly, sometimes people call a particular experience horrifying that doesn’t sound so bad to an outsider who hasn’t lived it – but to the person who went through the experience, the event was very impactful and maybe even traumatising. We all react to things differently and have built up our own tolerance levels to bullshit. As such, we don’t get to decide what someone else’s trauma is supposed to look like and how that person is supposed to act as a result of their experiences. What may not look so bad to us might be a nightmare to someone else, after all.
There’s this overwhelming sense of “yeah but other people had it worse” or “I was bullied too and I didn’t shoot up a school” that always comes out to play when people talk about the bullying factor of Columbine. We compare our own experiences to theirs or compare other people’s stories to this one, while we should be looking at the collective information about Columbine as a school environment and at the possibility that Eric and Dylan may have been negatively affected by something in that environment instead. We know for a fact that Columbine was good to athletes but not as good to the non-athletes. We know for a fact that there was bullying going on at the school and that teachers may have turned a blind eye to that. We also know that Eric and Dylan complained about things like social status, had compiled hitlists that featured a fair few people from school, and were not among the most popular it-crowd in the school. We can also infer from the evidence that they were both very sensitive young men who may have found it difficult to connect to people and took perceived slights very seriously.
However, let’s not forget that the boys were bullies to other people as well. They gave as good as they got sometimes and could be outright nasty to some people. I’m not saying that’s an excuse for anything or that it makes their own experiences less awful, but it does give off the impression that they’re less “awh poor babies” and more “meh they had it coming” in some people’s minds. I also think that the fact that they became murderers has a lot to do with why people don’t want to acknowledge the bullying: it humanises Eric and Dylan, but also creates an uncomfortable discussion about the effects of bullying that people are mostly not ready to have.
I have always said that bullying was one of the many contributing factors for the massacre. I have seen some of you in the community claim over the years that it was the only factor and that it was their sole reason for doing what they did. That’s not true, just like it’s not true that it wasn’t a factor at all. Bullying is a godawful thing to do to someone or have done to you, but in terms of Columbine there are many more things to take into account that had an impact on the decisions that Eric and Dylan made for others and for themselves.